I haven’t really sat down and wrote a long blog post and one that is more serious. Lately, I have been questioning whether or not I have lost my writing touch. There have been some posts that flow and then there are some that are ridiculous. I do want to write seriously and eloquently. So, this will be my first attempt.
I haven’t really touched on COVID-19 and Black Lives Matter subjects. It seems like with everything opening up that most people are forgetting that we are still in the middle of a pandemic. That we are not out of the woods yet. While going grocery shopping I’m still masking up. While pumping gas I still wear gloves. I’m still staying home and not going out in order to reduce my chances of catching this nasty virus. I’m leaning on faith and not fear. So, how am I leaning on faith? I’m reminding myself that I’m not alone. That there is a Divine guidance at work in my life. I constantly ask my higher self how to handle situations that arise so I may not shrink into fear and become paralyzed. I have a daily practice to keep me grounded that helps me to stay in the here and now. The easiest route is breathing. I remind myself to breath and also practice mindful breathing. I have hope. By having hope in good outcomes it motivates me to keep going.
At work we are masking up. Patients and staff are donning masks. My church is practicing this as well. They are also practicing social distancing. I have yet to go back to church but I do plan on attending again one day. I tune in digitally. My hope for you , dear reader, is that you are protected from COVID-19.
I’m saddened to hear about so many cases of our brothers and sisters in the Black community being murdered. I’m angry but I am mostly saddened by it. The case of Ahmaud Aubrey woke me up again. Soon after another wake up call when George Floyd was murdered. Recently, Breonna Taylor’s birthday came and went. She would have been 27. So many lives in the past and recently taken away. Whenever this occurs I wonder how the families of the victims are handling it. It’s hard to hear about but to be the person living through it would be worse. On Breonna’s birthday I decided to take a stand. I decided to sign a petition to demand justice. She had a beautiful future unfolding in front of her. It hurts my heart knowing she didn’t fulfill all her aspirations. Last Tuesday I did the social media Black Out Tuesday. It’s my way showing support to the Black community. I don’t march only because of of COVID-19 and also safety. I naturally like staying home and don’t like crowds. So the pandemic and the crowds would compound my anxiety. I’m showing support in whatever way I can. I hope, dear reader, that you can show support to our Black brothers and sisters during this time. We all can make a difference.
I hope this blog post touches your heart and motivates you to live your life with courage and compassion.
“Remember, it’s a beautiful world. Open up your heart. Take a closer look and trust.” -Raven Reina
I’m currently staying over at my in-laws house. I packed light. It forces me to entertain myself with my phone. Jesse is sleeping in and my mother-in-law is working from home. So there is no conversation at the moment. I’ve been having conversations with myself this morning. I’m thinking of so many possibilities when it comes to doing something today. I like mornings. They are full of promise.
I’ve noticed that I’m more of a morning person now that I work during the day. I didn’t think I’d be a morning person. I used to be a night owl. Now that I’m older I notice how my body craves routine. What is your favorite time? Day? Night? Somewhere in between?
So many of us have been ordered to stay home to protect each other. While it can be difficult to distance yourself since we are such social creatures the benefit in the end will show us it’s fruits. I work in healthcare and I’m going out to help the community by being a certified nurse’s assistant helping wherever I can in the hospital. The time spent at home has helped my personal growth greatly. It also has strengthened my relationship with my husband. I have more time to be a conscious pet parent to my cat. I have become more comfortable with the person I am and who I am becoming. In fact, I’m happier. Dare I say I’m joyful during a pandemic?! I may be self isolating and practicing social distancing while out but I’m actually happy. I hope while you’re living through this that you can find joy even if it’s just for a moment. My prayer is that you are protected and held.
Remember, it’s a beautiful world. Take a closer look. Open up your heart and trust.
Yes, yes, I know that I’m late getting this out. The Lunar New Year came and went. In fact, I’ve been wanting to write for a while now. Possibly write about fresh starts. Who doesn’t like a fresh start? I know I do. There is something about the new year that just adds more hope to the evolution of self. I adore this year’s number sequence. 2020. Just rolls out so easily. So evenly? Okay, maybe I’m not one to talk numbers because I struggle horribly in math but this number seems exciting. A portal possibly. 2020 vision. What else could we have some fun with the sets of numbers. Please math geeks speak up because your writer here needs a bit more to add to this blog. Alright, enough dilly dallying here.
For me, this year represents so much. For one, I’m coming more into myself by knowing exactly what I want and don’t want. I’m still at a loss to know which decisions are in my highest alignment with Source Energy but hey that’s what being human is. We are doing the best we can and it sometimes feel like a best guess or a coin toss. Thank God that you are in control of it all. Yep. Source Energy and God is in my book the same thing. Mention God to someone and they may run. Mention Source Energy and they turn towards you a bit more but with some wariness. I get it. My mind doubts a lot too when it comes to Creator. Yep. Did it again. God also in my book goes by Creator. So, now we have some key titles we can move onto what I’m supposed to be talking about. I just like rambling. It’s so much fun. Life is short so I try to have as much fun as possible but also be productive. So, yes, the new year is exciting and refreshing. Did I make any resolutions? Nope. I just came with the intention of evolving my sacred self. Yeah, sounds hokey but hey it’s working. Its February and I’m still riding high on the wave of possibilities. I hope you are riding the great wave of life with hope, curiosity, and passion. Also, peace. As I look out my window and up to the clouds my hope is that people have peace. So, with that I’ll close my ramblings because today this is exactly what needed to be written. At best I hope you enjoyed. We won’t go into worst. 😉 Take care.
During many Thanksgiving seasons we see all kinds of statements regarding gratitude. Most of them are positive. I rarely see someone on Facebook saying how grateful they are for a loss. It’s been months but I’m still in the process of grieving a friendship that I think has very little hope of being rebuilt. What a funny statement to say on Facebook, “I’m grateful for someone pretending I don’t exist. They have shown me that I have many friends besides them even though they will always be in my heart.” Can you imagine the pouring out of questions. Only to deepen the pain of loss. At least that is what my imagination is saying. I try not to obsess or ruminate. I’m very good at that. However, this blog post is about gratitude. Not the loss of a friend. That was in another post. What I’m trying to say is that it’s a rare thing to witness someone being grateful for something seemingly negative. However, without the storm there can be no rainbow or insert whatever you wish to make the point. I do have to say, I’m grateful for friendships. They help me see. They help me see myself, others, and the world around me. It also helps challenge me to become who I’m meant to become. What are you grateful for? More specifically what seemingly negative thing are you grateful for? I also challenge you not to be snarky when making the statement but rather very mindful and sincere. Blessings dear readers.
Finding joy in the now moments. From that sip of coffee to singing along to a high school favorite. Sometimes it’s easy to dismiss these moments and lose the value of them. How much joy they bring. They may be small but be they potent if we only allow them to be. To be able to soak up those pleasures in life. Even now I’m appreciating my typing. Feeling the rings on my fingers and my fingertips press into the keys. The now moment.
This is gonna be a short one guys. I am now in another now moment trying to expand on this and all I have is a blank mind and a listening ear to meditation music. So, I encourage you to find your now moments and to savor them. I will write more later my friends. It’s been too long since we’ve shared. Thank you dear readers.
This one is a hard one to choose. I have so many rooms in my house that I adore. I’m learning to appreciate my home office more. It’s currently under construction so the atmosphere for writing isn’t complete. I have a feeling it will soon be the best place for me to write. It just makes sense. My desk is here and it’s the most convenient and practical place. However, is it my favorite? Right now, not yet. So, where is my favorite room to write in? I’m a coffee and tea type of girl. I love waking up and having some coffee and the next best thing I like to do in the mornings is write. As tempting as it is to say it’s the meditation room because it’s so peaceful and pretty I’m going to choose the dining room. Why? That’s where we have our (my husband and I) own little café. There I can write on the dining room table surrounded by various containers of tea and coffee. I love feeling like a witch of sorts when I see mason jars and tea bins with neatly printed labels on them. As if I can just jump into making something with my intentions and will through the medium of tea leaves and coffee beans. That’s when my senses perk up and the creative juices start to flow. So, it’s a win for the dining room/café room.
Now, dear reader, I beg to ask you the same question. Where in your living quarters do you like to write? Which room and why?
Okay, this quote is a bit on the snarky side but it does hit home in many many many respects. The general consensus when talking to people and myself is that the dating scene SUCKS! Yes, it sucks. Why? The unknown. How much I fight against the unknown. Not so much as in the past but darn it. How are we supposed to know how the one you plan on seriously having a relationship with won’t hurt you? We don’t and the truth is they will. Yes, even unintentionally. We come back to our childhoods whether we like it or not. It’s almost as if the Universe is saying, “I’m going to reflect some serious shit to you. You have work to do. Get your shit together.” Did you think it was going to be gentle or easy? Nope. It can bring you to your knees. It’s exactly the point.
Without hardship there would be no reward but it doesn’t mean in ANY WAY to tolerate abuse. I repeat. You do not need to stay with an abuser or be the abuser. Basically, know your worth darn it and step it up. I say this in the most gentle and strongest tone. It’s hard to see when you’re in it. There have been times where I have abused myself and others without even realizing I was doing it. I was so wrong. Dead wrong. Fucking wrong. Yes, I’ll admit that I wasn’t the nicest person. In fact, in my self righteous and passionate but skewed view was causing havoc. Total havoc.
Now this is where the sweet song of unconditional love, grace, and forgiveness comes in. I digress. We are talking about dating.
I’ve been walking around having a deeper understanding of having compassion. Not only for others but also for myself. Once I start to see people as mirrors, brothers and sisters, and as a collective I start to ease up and see things in a more peaceful way. Big sigh. It settles everything. The blockages are released in my body and my soul starts to sing. I start to lead from a place of love and healing. Once that is activated it’s only natural to give it away to others. To treat myself well sings a song of praise to Creator that I am grateful. To treat others well means that I see Creator’s masterpiece. So, once I start to lose the attitude and start living from gratitude I see things in some many layers and in deeper levels. My intention behind this entry is to show that leading from healing and love can recover the pain and wrongs of the past. It is possible my friends. For me, it’s an ongoing process.
My only take on dating is to be true to yourself and to the one you may pursue. It start with yourself and then you can radiate that to your beloved. All my well wishes to you on the dating scene if you’re single and looking. If you are in a relationship I wish you the best as well. It’s ongoing no matter what the status.
Love and Light and Truth,
Speed blogging today. Please be forgiving when reading this.
In times of turbulence I tend to turn to my faith. I know for some it doesn’t seem natural. In fact, it’s hard to see a loved one struggling and they do not mention Creator at all when talking about their struggles. I listen and try not to preach. I have to say I’m good at preaching. Maybe because I need that type of encouragement. Whether or not they turn to a Higher power support is always needed. This Sunday my pastor mentioned Psalm 23. I focused on the fourth verse because it jumped out to me. I remembered a song quoting it. How it comforts and supports me. Knowing that my guide in Jesus can help me go in the direction of my best interest but also protect me along the way is of great relief. Just knowing I’m protected frees me up to persue what God wills me to.
I count myself fortunate that my dark days have passed for the most part. The demons I have encountered recently are no where near as menacing as the demons of the past. Knowing Creator is watching and sending Archangels and angels to fight for me is also of great help. The greatest battle was won by Christ. I’m so thankful for that.
My hope for you is that brighter and lighter days are ahead of you. If you struggle know that you have many seen and unseen heroes standing along side you. Know that you are loved.
It’s a beautiful world. Take a closer look, open up your heart and trust.
There is a sweet subtle longing for heaven within me. Where I can spread my wings and shine,sing, vibrate to the highest possible frequency surrounding God. At times I feel like my true home is surrounding God. Sometimes being here on this earth heartbreakingly beautiful and the experience is worth it’s weight in gold. I know that this is a gift from Creator. I am learning to experience everything to the fullest and not look back or forward. To be in the now. It’s a meditative practice. Most of the time I’m searching how to clear my energy,surround myself with Divine Golden/White Light and to be closer to heaven. In my spare time I imagine the possibilities of my Soul Mission. I ask and hope that I can follow through on God’s nudgings. It’s so silent and undemanding at times. It’s hard to tell if it’s really Creator. Almost like a lover who plays hide and go seek. My heart flowers at the thought of Him playfully encouraging me to grow and to experience this lifetime. This morning I just have this contentement but also this longing. I want to love Love fully. So, with this in mind I will leave you with a few things to take with you during your day.